Happy belated birthday Dad! I am super lame for posting yesterday and not writing that important bit of information for the world to read. Good thing I went over to your house for dinner to make up for my tragic mistake.
Today marks the second second interview I have had in my entire life. It went just fine, and I'm pretty sure they are interested in me. I made the first cut; out of 7 people, 4 were asked to return. I'm still not that interested in the position but I will take what I can get at this point.
I was talking with their COO first and he gave me some spontaneous interesting advice: be in control of your own destiny. Let's be honest here, I don't know if you can control your fate (I'm pretty sure our world is controlled by mathematics, my favorite universal language). A discovery by an old stoner friend was explained to me through the example of an equation tree, ultimately concluding that math is the root of all science, and with that statement I agree. I can't even begin to describe his idea here for fear of butchering it.
Let me play with the advice; let's say you can control your future. Then I am not controlling my future in the direction I wish to go by accepting this job (if I get it, that is). True, I will take this job if I get it (I could really use the money/benefits). But I am side-stepping my real dream.
I am conflicted. Obviously I want a job. I am bored out of my mind and spend waaaaayyyyyy tooooooooo much time on my online classes. However, I just started this phlebotomy class and I would love to have the opportunity to use this new skill in a healthcare setting. Plus I need to finish pre-reqs for nursing school. The logical decision is to take the job and slowly finish the pre-reqs, but my heart says F-it, just finish the nursing stuff so you can get into a school.
It's funny to re-read this because I am assuming I will get the job. That may not happen, and then I can just go along with my original plan: Phlebotomy class to phlebot job to finish pre-reqs to nursing apps to nursing school to nursing job. Sounds like a plan.
Is it bad that part of me doesn't want the job? Too bad things in life are NOT free :(
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Hello there! Thanks for leaving the comment on my blog :) And thanks for saying that Jaime "speaks so highly" of me -- fortunately, the interwebs don't convey vocal subtleties very well, so I am going to assume that you meant it genuinely and not at all sarcastically! Haha.
Speaking of, I'm sure my younger brother has told you that I am the accursed starving artiste of the family, meaning that I have been in a constant state of struggling between doing what I love to do vs. doing what pays the bills (argh...life), so I can empathize with you regarding this post. All I can say at this point is, while there is no shame in taking a job for the money/benefits (anyone who disagrees probably has daddy's trust fund to fall back on), you should never lose sight of your ultimate dream and goals. It's too easy to fall into the trap of getting comfortable with the guaranteed paycheck, and then before you know it, all this time has passed and you're no closer to your life's happiness. I may or may not be speaking from experience...
Anyway, yes, I'll be reading your blog now! I need something to do during my boring-ass day job, after all. Ha.
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